Manifesting: Life and Death

My mother passed away last Thursday.
She had been in poor health for months, and she was 83.
I did the " seeing her as well" and the " Thank you Father" and the " Isn't it wonderful?" but she died anyway.
Why?
Well, a few nights before she passed, we had to rush her to the ER.
Laying there on the bed, hooked up to monitors, IVs, sensors, she began to writhe and say " Please let me go!" over and over.
At first I thought she was talking to the nurses, but then I realized what it was.
She didn't want to be here anymore.
Most of her family was dead, including her husband, my father, who had died years ago.
While she recovered I still pictured her as well, and the day before she passed she looked almost like I saw her in my thoughts. Clear eyed, coherent...she looked good.
When I left her that day I told her I loved her, kissed her and went home.
The next morning at 11:00 an orderly called and said she was supposed to get her hair washed and cut, but she refused. 83 years old and she was arguing with them. I just laughed and said " That sounds about right." She always was feisty.
One hour later at 12:00 they called back and said she was non responsive and that they had called 911.
By the time we got to the hospital, she was gone.
Why?
I did what I was supposed to, but she died anyway.
I think It was because her will to go was greater.
She wanted to go. She wanted to be with the others she had missed for so long.
I was asking God to let her stay, she was asking God to let her go.
And she just peacefully closed her eyes and left.

After we left the hospital, I was upset, understandably, so I went to Barnes and Noble where it's peaceful and quiet. I wandered around a bit and a book caught my eye.
It was " Zero Limits" by Joe Vitale. I've always liked Joe's stuff, so I picked it up and started reading it.
I bought it and began to read it in my spare time.
I have to tell you, that book helped me a lot with my grief.
I think I'll go a little more into the book in future entries. I don't think Joe wrote it for a situation like I was in, but it helped me anyway.
So yes, I have to recommend it.


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